I haven't been on here in a long time. Well really since my Divorce. Things have been very hard for me this last year, My Ex husband is already remarried and has a new baby on the way. It's funny how easy it was for him to move on and here I am alone because I'm too scared of being hurt again. I have been trying to date again and I got close to one man but it didn't work out. I just find it hard to love again, it seems now days love doesn't last like it should. No one really knows what I was put through in my marriage the damage that has been done. I have a hard time trusting anyone or believing there is real love out there anymore. No one understands the thing I was put through and the hurt he caused me or why I did things I did because of the damaged he caused.
But now I'm trying to rebuild my life and also trying to love again, A lot has happened in the last year. I moved out of my parents home and moved to Tuscaloosa Al. I live with my sister who's marriage also ended a week after mine did, so we have been through a lot together She has been my rock and I hers. I have a job now. An I can say I honestly am happier now then I've been in years. I honestly thought I was going to die when my marriage ended the way it did. BUT I DIDN'T! And I realize now that god had a reason for this he had something better in mind for me. I'm going back to school now and doing things on my own. I'm working hard to build my life back. I will not let a man do anything for me ever again because When he walks out o me he will do it with only the clothes on his back I refuse to be in a position where everything I have is taken from me again.. This is my life and I only get one and I'm going to live it the best way I can........I have a lot of people who love and believe in me and for the ones who don't just sit back and watch me prove you wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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