Another sleepless nite....

Another Sleepless nite for me. I don't know what it is that is causing not to sleep, if it because My dad has been so sick and I have worried so much, or if it's because is coming home for R&R. All I do know is if I don't get some sleep soon I'm going to crack. The military life is very stressful under normal circumstances But when your dealing with a deployment on top of it all it's the worse. It will be over in another 6 months and we can get back to our life together. I give him all the support he needs but sometimes you feel like your alone must of the time . It's a hard life and it's not for everyone. You have to make alot of sacrifices , if it's feelings or time with you spouse, he can be gone for long periods of time and being alone it much worse then anything the military throws at you.  Well I'm through venting for now.

6 days to go....

6 more days to go. John will be on a plane coming home. He will have a 24hrs lay over so he should be home no later then the 20th or 21st. I can't believe after 5 months I will get to hold him again. It's been so long and I am a little nervous I don't know why we have been married a little over 14 years. But our love has  grew stronger thur all this. I guess it's true separation only makes the heart fonder. It's hard somethimes to decribe in words what I feel for my husband. I could not imagine my life without him in it. 
I'm a stay at home Army wife and there is a part of me that wants to go back to work but there is also a bigger part of me that loves to be home an take care of my husband. I love cleaning for him , cooking , and taking care of things for him.  Being able to be there when he needs me makes me happy. I know this sounds like well old fashion. But I love it. The amount of love I have for this man there's no end to it.  

When he comes home we are going to make the most of his R&R. the first few days he will get some rest and then we are going to have our Christmas together. Then a couple of days after that we are going back home for a visit with the family. And the rest is our time together. God I have missed him so much. I love you very much John. See you soon baby.......