The age for Doctor's, Mammograms and Needles...

I went to Doctor's yesterday for a simple checkup. Then the question every woman hates to here. He asked " have you ever had a Mammogram done?" I told him no that I didn't think I was old enough yet. The Doctor told me that I was going to be 39 this year and I should have already had one done. Then it was on the a breast exam. Words I never wanted to hear "you have a limp" He located it in my right Breast. At that moment I just wanted to jump up and run. But I couldn't move , I couldn't even think. There I was all alone with no one to turn to. John's still in Afghanistan, all of our family lives in Meridian, and Union Mississippi. I was completely alone.
It's amazing when you hear those words all the things that run through your mind. Your memories, the people you love, Your future. Even though it could be nothing you are still scared to death. I've watched my Mother in law and my husbands Aunt go thru this, They lose both their Breast due to Cancer. I watched the whole process and to this day I don't know how they got thru it.
Then their is the fear if it is bad, How is your husband going to feel. The questions that are running thru my mind is How is he going to handle this if it is bad? Is he still going to find my Beautiful? An will he still look at me the same?
Please pray for me to find the strengh to get through this.