A year ago today....

A year ago today my divorce became final. I've made some amazing changes in my life, Moving to Alabama, got a job, made a lot of friends. My life was not over like I thought it was. There were moments when I just wanted to die. But my family and friends kept me going. An now I have found love again, Michael is the best thing of all. He has showed me more love then anyone has ever shown me. I honestly believe he is my soul mate and we are meant to grow old together. We are talking about getting married this fall, we have set a date yet but we are planning it. I honestly told myself I would never get married again I was so wrong about that. I have fallen in love with him, he makes me feel alive and so loved everyday. He tells me each day how beautiful I am and how much he loves me. I thought the damage my ex husband cause me would never heal but it has and I forgive him for the things he did. I know now I can go on with my life and be happy with someone who truly loves me for who I am. I know he will be by my side no matter what. I've worked hard to make the changes I needed to in my life. Now it's time for me to be happy and I'm so very happy with Michael.

2014 is going to be amazing.....

This is the beginning of a new year, start fresh, That's what I'm doing now. I have a job with amazing people, good friends, and family that loves me. My decision to move to Tuscaloosa , Al. was the best one I ever made. A lot has happened in 2013 some bad and some good, but I wouldn't change any of it. It's made me who I am now and I thank God for the changes that have come to my life. I honestly believe if the things that happen to me had continued I wouldn't be here right now. Now I'm stronger and happier then I have ever been. I have met an amazing man, Michael Holt who I feel is the love of my life. He is everything I've been waiting for . He is sweet, loving and a very caring person. I see a wonderful future with him. He builds me up and makes me smile. My life has travel a rough road but now I finally feel like I'm home.

Focusing on my self for a change!!!!!

Well today is my Ex husbands birthday and you know I don't really care like I thought I would, Our wedding Anniversary would have been on the 8th of November, it would have been our 16th But I don't care about that either. I know it surprises me to that I don't. I just keep growing stronger everyday and looking toward my future and where it is going. No I'm not dating right now I'm taking a break. Right now I have to focus on whats important to me, Family, Career, Friends and my happiness. I don't need a man to complete me thats something I have realized it's my job to make myself feel complete. I know a lot of women out there are going through a divorce and some may feel their world is coming to an end , But I'm here to tell you it's not you've got to get up each day and make yourself go no matter what and I promise you each day will get easier and soon you will get pass the pain your feeling right now it will become just a memory. A lesson learned, and the next time you fall in love you will not allow the same crap in your life you will be stronger then ever.
The one piece of Advice I can give is never surround your life around someone else , Be your own person stand on your own two feet and never let anyone bring you down... Because honestly if you do that it can destroy you, as a woman we have to be stronger and never give up!!!  

The way life Changes!!!!!

I haven't been on here in a long time. Well really since my Divorce. Things have been very hard for me this last year, My Ex husband is already remarried and has a new baby on the way. It's funny how easy it was for him to move on and here I am alone because I'm too scared of being hurt again. I have been trying to date again and I got close to one man but it didn't work out. I just find it hard to love again, it seems now days love doesn't last like it should. No one really knows what I was put through in my marriage the damage that has been done. I have a hard time trusting anyone or believing  there is real love out there anymore. No one understands the thing I was put through and the hurt he caused me or why I did things I did because of the damaged he caused.
But now I'm trying to rebuild my life and also trying to love again, A lot has happened in the last year. I moved out of my parents home and moved to Tuscaloosa Al. I live with my sister who's marriage also ended a week after mine did, so we have been through a lot together She has been my rock and I hers. I have a job now. An I can say I honestly am happier now then I've been in years. I honestly thought I was going to die when my marriage ended the way it did. BUT I DIDN'T! And I realize now that god had a reason for this he had something better in mind for me. I'm going back to school now and doing things on my own. I'm working hard to build my life back. I will not let a man do anything for me ever again because When he walks out o me he will do it with only the clothes on his back I refuse to be in a position where everything I have is taken from me again.. This is my life and I only get one and I'm going to live it the best way I can........I have a lot of people who love and believe in me and for the ones who don't just sit back and watch me prove you wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've met someone New

I've met someone new he is a wonderful man. He's so good to me. I don't know how to act around him. He treats me like a lady. I know everyone keeps telling me I deserve him but I'm just not use to coming first in someones life. I pray every night this works out for us because I really love him a lot.

Christmas 2012

This will be the first christmas I'll be alone. It's harder then I thought it would be. After being married 15 yrs to the same man it's been very hard on me my depression has been out of control and the days seem so lonely. My one christmas wish is for things to get better and for me to be happy again......

I've found someone.....

I finally found someone who is so sweet, honest and good to me. We started out as friends and it turned into more. He is so good to me I don't know how to act. I'm not use to a gentle man who listens to what I have to say and cares about me only. It's not all about money, power over me or kicking me when I'm down. He just wants me and me only. I really think this is true love the way it is suppose to be. It only comes once in a life time and I think this is it.