Just another thing that burns me up...

Those of you know who you are , you really need to read this.

I have something on my mind today, I have been reading alot of blogs from military spouses. They were talking about their military spouse and their service to their COUNTRY! Some of you don't approve of the things they say or the words they use ( like we are moving to a new duty station or we are going before the board today and some on) I guess it's the WE you don't like well I do like the word WE, it makes me feel that I am apart of my Husbands Career also. He will even say WE. I feel like we as Military spouses serve right along with them, They call us the SILENT RANKS! An that's just what we are. I mean REALLY people get a life! What is the big deal about how you refer to yourself when it come to your husbands/ wives career. Also what is such a big deal about you wearing his name or his Rank you are showing your support and they are proud when you do " I know my husband is"  I talk to our unit commander about this and he agrees with me. These woman and Men need our support and we need to show it every way we can. We have soldiers Dying everyday to protect our freedom to express ourselves and who are you to tell us we can't. A soldier can't even be buried in peace without protesters showing up at the funerals. I'm going to wear what I want and say what I want to show them all the support I can. YES! you do need to be careful about what you say because you could put them in danger. But this crap is so stupid. I'm sorry but it is. We have enough stress in our lives without junk like this. I'm sure I've made some people mad but that's why it's a free country.
I have a tattoo with my husbands Rank and Name. I got it before he deployed and I'm Da*m proud of it and so is he! My husband and I both live for the ARMY, That's our life and I wouldn't have it any other way...
Another thing that makes me mad is when you have someone who say they are not a military spouse,an their husbands/ wives only serve in the part time military. That's bull, you are a military spouse no matter how often your spouse puts on their uniforms. My husband served 12 years on the part time side and then Transfered to the Fulltime Army Reserves, When you say your not a military spouse you are discressing him/her and the uniform. Face the facts it doesn't matter if your part time or full time when your in a war zone, they are all putting their lives in danger so you can run your mouth. I got to stop here because I'm going to bust a vein if I keep going. You get the point and that is all that matters.

I wear his rank well

My gift to him.

John Made it Back...

Taken while John was home for R&R. Love you Baby.

I finally got an email from John he made it back to the base, He said it had been a long few days, And he had only got about 3 hours sleep since he left on the 7th. I felt so bad for him he works so hard and this war doesn't help. I feel helpless being here at home and there's nothing I can do to help him beside be there to listen and give him my support. I'm so use to being by his side in everything he does, It's hard to think any differently. He knows that he can count on me day and night. We only have for months left of being apart. The first 6 months were "well I'm just going to say it" Hell. There is no other word for it. When you are away from the person you love that's exactly what it feels like. But there was only two things that got John and me thur it and that was GOD, Every prayer I said he answered I give him all the credit. The second was Family and Friends. They all have been very supportive. There were times I felt very alone because John wasn't here with me I felt I had no one. I WAS WRONG! At the time I was so depressed I couldn't see it at all. John and I have been so blessed. An I have to thank the Lord for that. I love him more then any words could decribe. I had forgotten that for a long time but never again.
John if you get to read this I love you baby and I pray everyday for your safe return home. Talk to you soon......

The Lord's Name

What the Lord's name means to me, See how many things you can list.
1. Love                   11. Witness       21. Kindness       31. there are so many more
2. warmth            12. Answer s     22. mighty
3. salvation          13. affection     23.miracle
4. cleansed          14. Hope            24.Godly
5. rebirth              15. Home         25.goodness
6. happiness        16. joy              26.Faith
7. forgiveness      17. learn          27. Family
8. light                  18. Glory         28.Eternal
9. son                    19. Gentle        29.Courage
10. heaven           20. Joyful       30. Beautiful

The words of our Lord:
The parable of the Mustard Seed

Matthew 13: 31,32
31 Another parable put he forth unto them, saying, The kingdom of heaven is like to a grain of mustard seed, which a man took and sowed in his field.
32 Which indeed is the least of all seeds: but when it is grown it is the greatest among herbs and becometh a tree so that the birds of the air come and lodge in the branches thereof.     

Dear Lord I come to you in prayer today to ask please keep my family safe in your arms and to thank you for all your wonderful blessings you have giving me. I love you with all of my heart. In your name I pray,  Amen....

Finding Hope, Faith and Love in God.

First off I want to give Credit for this post to my Cousin Jenn she has a blog called ( Mother of three). Her post are about Faith , love  for her family and the love she has for the lord.  It is a wonderful blog to read  if you feel you are slipping away from God. It has really lifted my spirit and made me realize just how far I have moved from the lord. That is the one thing people need to realize that we are the ones who moved from him, GOD DOES NOT MOVE. He's always right there when we need him. I'm proof of that, John was deployed in Sept. 2011 and we lost our dog ( who was more like our child) in November 2011, I almost lost John in December 2011, and last was in Jan 2012 I almost lost my Dad. I prayed like I've never prayed before every time. I'm here to tell you God answered every prayer. He is so amazing. I haven't been in Church in a long time. I got away from him. But my cousin has helped me more then so she knows with her blog post. She has a kindness for people that I haven't seen in a long time. We all could use that in our lives now days.
  I feel like we have forgotten what our parents , grandparents and so on have in stilled in us long ago. This country was founded on Faith in God. We have forgotten what it means for us to stick together and stand for what we believe in. They have taken God out of Schools, Businesses and even the government. I feel it's time for everyone to take the time and reflect an ask ourselves if this is the kind of country we really want our children to grow up in. We all need God in our lives. He is the only one who can guide us down the right path and our children.

Always Remember what he went through for us.

Give him all your praise.

John went back today..

     Carried John to the airport this morning he got off okay. He just kept telling me that we only had 5 more months to go. It's true, but it doesn't make it any easier to say goodbye. I'm a strong woman and that is the thing a military spouse has to remember. The love I have for my family keeps me going. John, Crockett, Sadie, Festiss and Lil Puss are my family and I have to be strong for them. I also love my family and John's family they have all been great and very supportive Thur all of this. I didn't realize before just how many people truly cared about me, I feel so blessed. The love God has given me I give all the thanks to him. He is the one who will help me get Thur these next 5 months.

   There's also something I want to talk about that I read the other day. I'm so proud of our troops and their families. We have to have faith to see us through all of this. As military families we depend on one another for support. I read the other day that some spouses get mad when they see blog post where they say things like " we are going before the board soon to move up in rank or we are going on Deployment soon, and so on". They don't like the fact that they use the word we. Because it is the soldier who is doing all the work not the spouse. Well I don't agree with that and neither does my Husband who is a Staff Sergent. I went with him to the board for his E5 and there was a major there who was so impressed about my support for John. When John went before the board he said they all were bragging about me being there for him. He will tell people to this day that I helped him get promoted. We as military spouses are the one who take care of our families and are there to pickup the pieces when our husbands come home from wars that cause them to never be the same again. What they go Thur we go Thur with them. When they have to study for a school or work we are the ones there helping them to remember things they need to have to get the job done. We are the Silent Ranks that are forgotten alot of the times. But We have made the choice to stand by them and love them as much as we can. We are the ones left behind while they do their duty in serving their country. We serve right along with them. That's why I don't agree with the statements made. I am proud the be an Army Wife and I will always be an Army Wife long after my husband retires, Because That is who we are and always will be.

John's Leaving tomorrow

Well John will be leaving tomorrow and I'm sooo not ready for it. He only has 5 months left on his deployment. So far 6 months of it has  flown by. So I pray the rest of it goes by fast to. I'm going to miss him. This will be the forth time I've said goodbye to him since July 2011. I really get tired of having to say it. But this is our life and I am so proud of him. I'm trying to be strong and show him that I will be okay. Before he came home alot had happen. Blubell died and we almost lost Dad. This being our first deployment it was very ruff. But I feel that it is down hill now. This 5 months is going to fly by. My love for him will always keep me going.

Here is a photo I took tonight of John and Crocket

Crocket loves being clean

He loves his rub downs after a hard day of napping.....
It's hard to believe that crocket is 5 1/2 months old and already weights almost 50lbs.

So Glad to be home...

Well John and I came home today, We stay in Union for a week and had a wonderful visit with our families. We got to plant 22 fruit trees, trimmed my trees and finally got my weeping willow tree. I've been wanting one for so long. John planted it behind Katie and bluebell's graves so it will be big and beautiful over their graves. I know I sound like I'm talking about real children. Well I guess they are to us. They were more then just pets to us.
 Anyway everyone was so glad to see John and he was to. It was an adjustment when he first got home and he is a little different then he use to be. But it is understandable. He did tell me things that had happen over there. I just listen and be very understanding. That's really all a military spouse can do. He did bring back some really great stuff he got over there. He knows I love writing in a Journal so he got me one that is made out of Camel skin it's paper is really different from what we write on, it's very pretty. He also got silk scarfs that he bought for my mom, his mom , grandmothers and sister. He got my dad a really cool camel skin hat and there were a few more things really too many to list.
Here are some pictures of the Camel Skin Journal he gave me. ( it was my late Christmas present)

This the front of the Journal it has a map of Afghanistan.

This how the paper looks and it is very soft.

This is the back.