Time is flying by...

Time is just flying by. in 3 more days my husband will be on a plane heading home to me. I'm so excited to see him. Their has been so much going on here at home that it will be so good to have him by my side again. I've missed him so much. When the person you love has been away for awhile you go around feeling like half of your soul is gone. Nothing makes since without the love of your life is not there with you. An then on top of it he is deployed to a dangerous place where you stay on pins and needles all the time waiting for a phone call or waiting for a knock on the door . I pray everyday for that not to happen. It's scary when you don't hear from them for days at a time. An when you do finally here from them you want to just broke down and say where have you been? But you can't do that because you don't want to put them under more stress. But he will be here in a few days and he will be safe at home for 15 days. An I can't wait. I love you very much John....

Some of My Tattoos...

These are just a few of my tattoos . I have 13 in all and I'm not done yet. I plain on getting another one when my husband comes home from Afganistan.

Getting ready for his home coming......

Well we have 5 more days and John will be on a plane heading home. I've been busy getting the house ready and groceries bought The cabinets are stocked with his favorite foods. I've also been working on welcome home signs and also getting ready to have our own Christmas together. It's a late one but that's okay because you can have Christmas when you want to. I have been so excited I can't sleep at nite. Sometimes it feels like the day we met. Like we are just seeing each other for the first time. I love this man so much. I couldn't imagine my life without him it's just us in this world and we were made for each other.

Another sleepless nite....

Another Sleepless nite for me. I don't know what it is that is causing not to sleep, if it because My dad has been so sick and I have worried so much, or if it's because is coming home for R&R. All I do know is if I don't get some sleep soon I'm going to crack. The military life is very stressful under normal circumstances But when your dealing with a deployment on top of it all it's the worse. It will be over in another 6 months and we can get back to our life together. I give him all the support he needs but sometimes you feel like your alone must of the time . It's a hard life and it's not for everyone. You have to make alot of sacrifices , if it's feelings or time with you spouse, he can be gone for long periods of time and being alone it much worse then anything the military throws at you.  Well I'm through venting for now.

6 days to go....

6 more days to go. John will be on a plane coming home. He will have a 24hrs lay over so he should be home no later then the 20th or 21st. I can't believe after 5 months I will get to hold him again. It's been so long and I am a little nervous I don't know why we have been married a little over 14 years. But our love has  grew stronger thur all this. I guess it's true separation only makes the heart fonder. It's hard somethimes to decribe in words what I feel for my husband. I could not imagine my life without him in it. 
I'm a stay at home Army wife and there is a part of me that wants to go back to work but there is also a bigger part of me that loves to be home an take care of my husband. I love cleaning for him , cooking , and taking care of things for him.  Being able to be there when he needs me makes me happy. I know this sounds like well old fashion. But I love it. The amount of love I have for this man there's no end to it.  

When he comes home we are going to make the most of his R&R. the first few days he will get some rest and then we are going to have our Christmas together. Then a couple of days after that we are going back home for a visit with the family. And the rest is our time together. God I have missed him so much. I love you very much John. See you soon baby.......

Thank you God for all your blessing....

First off I want to thank God for the blessing he has given to my family. The gift he gave us is my dad. He has been on life support for over a week now he was very sick and we almost lost him. It was amazing everyone we new pulled together and prayed . They came from everywhere from friends, family , and even prayer groups. We have never felt so much love before. Dad and Mom always told us if you aways help others it will come back to you one way or another. God gave my Dad back to us and the doctors said he could live along time with COPD. You my parents are the glue that keeps us together, and I love them very much. So If anyone says God is not real to me just read my blog and yes he is very real. He is good and kind. Something else my parents told me that has always kept me going is that he never put more on you then you can handle. This was a real and true miracle.                                                                                             

My Dad has had a hard life he been in 6 car wracks , had a Fork lift fall on him, his body was taken over by chemicals at work and that doesn't even cover how sick he was from the time he born until he was around 12 years old. He has come so close to death so many times and every time God has told him "no not yet". He has worked my whole life sometime 2 or 3 jobs at a time, Mom also worked there were time in my childhood that things could have been a little better. But I have always carried the life lessons that they taught me. Even tho I haven't always been the greatest child and I'm sure there were times when I disappointed them and times when they were proud to be my parents. They have always been there when I needed them and I couldn't imagine my life with out them. I love them both and Thank you God for them and for blessing in so many ways.

My baby called. yay!!!!

My baby called me tonight . It feels so good when I hear his voice I wish I could here it more often. It's funny no matter how down I get when he calls he always gets me to laugh. That is one thing I love about him. He's over there fighting a war and he's making me laugh. I love him so much and there is only 7 more days and he will be heading home to me. I would give anything up if he didn't have to go back. But we will face that together when the time comes.