I've met someone New

I've met someone new he is a wonderful man. He's so good to me. I don't know how to act around him. He treats me like a lady. I know everyone keeps telling me I deserve him but I'm just not use to coming first in someones life. I pray every night this works out for us because I really love him a lot.

Christmas 2012

This will be the first christmas I'll be alone. It's harder then I thought it would be. After being married 15 yrs to the same man it's been very hard on me my depression has been out of control and the days seem so lonely. My one christmas wish is for things to get better and for me to be happy again......

I've found someone.....

I finally found someone who is so sweet, honest and good to me. We started out as friends and it turned into more. He is so good to me I don't know how to act. I'm not use to a gentle man who listens to what I have to say and cares about me only. It's not all about money, power over me or kicking me when I'm down. He just wants me and me only. I really think this is true love the way it is suppose to be. It only comes once in a life time and I think this is it.

Another Day

Woke up this morning feeling better then I have felt in a long time. Each day does get a little easier without him. I still have moments where I find myself needing him. But it is very few. Day by day I think I grow stronger and stronger. Now if I can make a plan for starting over alone. Where do I want to go with my life? What do I do next? An will I be alone forever? That's the question that run through my mind each day. I just need to come up with a plan for my life and how I want it to turn out.

Another bad day....

I had a really bad day yesterday. My Depression is out of control again, it is a battle everyday to function normally. People really don't understand how hard it is to control. Going thru a divorce ( my first) is the hardest thing to deal with we were married for 15 yrs. It's really hard to let go of someone you love. I have to start a whole new life and really don't know where to begin.

Early this morning

It's 5:42 a.m. I can't sleep again. I keep wondering where my life is going. I've started dating again. I'm still friends with my Ex husband. Which no one understands why. I don't want to hate him , where is it written when you divorce one another you have to hate each other forever. We had a good life at one time and a lot of good memories. I don't want to forget those times. I believe if you focus on the bad things then you can carry them over into your next relationship. So why do it. I know their is someone out there who will love me for who I am.

My new Life

My new life without my husband is harder then I thought it would be. Starting over is never easy to do. Your lonely all the time, you long for your husband and the life you once had. I keep thinking all the time How do I start over without him. When you love someone so much and they don't love you back it's still hard to move on.