The Adjustment....

John has been home for 3 full days now. It has been more of an adjustment for him then I realized. All he talks about is what is going on over there.( An when I say all he talks about, it's every word that comes out). Before he lift for deployment he always talked about our future together, all our plans for our house we are going to build , our land and just life in general. But it's different now. Then on top of it the T.V. stays on the military channel. Of course I love him and I listen to everything that is on his mind. He's also having a hard time sitting in one place for to long. I never seen him with so much energy before. I'm an old home body and he use to be so it's a little hard on me at times. He has seen alot over there and I feel like I'm in an unknown world and I don't know what to say about all of it. I'm just trying to be there for him and listen to whats on his mind and let him know I'm here in whatever his needs me for. I guess that's really all a military spouse can do. I pray for him everyday and with every prayer I ask God to give him the strength to make it thur this and come out in one piece. I know GOD is answering my prayers because it could be alot worse. I love my soldier, But I love my husband even more, and yes they are to different people. When he is in that uniform he is SSG. Skinner, when he's not he's the wonderful man I will spend the rest of my life with and always support him 200%......

Mom made this photo for me. I love it!!!

Poems I've written....

Date written May 9, 2011

Our Family Dogwood Tree...

Our Family Dogwood Tree started from a seed, God
gave it care and made it straight , tall and strong
enough that it would never fall.

One day this glorious man was nailed to our
tree, God spoke ," never again this can not be".

So he created another that was crooked and
strange to our sight, But the beauty inside
"Oh, what a delight"

It had beautiful green leaves that came out each
year with flowers shaped like a cross. A beautiful
sight , But what a cost.

There were blood stains on each petal to show
Gods power. So much to learn from this
little flower.

So everytime you pass our family tree lower
your head an remember "God did that for me ".


Date Written: June 19, 2011

When I Get To Heaven....

When I get to Heaven, Who will be there
for me, My family or will it be just me?
Will I kneel down before the Father as
humble as can be.

Will he wrap his arms around me and
say " walk with me". Will we talk about
my life and the choices I've made before
or will he simply say," I have loved you for
ever more."

You are my child you see, I have created you
in my own imagine and gave you free will
to make your own decisions.

I know your life was hard and I gave you alot of
lessons. But my child you succeeded them all, Thats
why your with me in Heaven.

The poems I've written...

Date written: 4/10/11

The life of a Military Wife....

You sit and wait in your daily life for

your soldier to come to his wife.

You long to see his face, his smile

that holds your heart in place.

You wonder how much longer

this has to be the separation from

my soul mate will be.

A military wife's job is never done and

at times it's certainly not fun.

You must stand strong and you cannot fall 

because your soldier needs you by his side.

He whispers to you,

"just a little longer my love and the job will be done".

So you put your loneliness aside an wait for the

day to come when a soldier he will no longer be

and the job is done.

Date written: Feb. 14, 2011 on Valentine's Day

SO PROUD...

 

Each day I awake Proud to be your wife,

with a smile on my face that

no one can erase.

I sit and watch you dress for your daily job.

Uniform perfectly straight down to

your boot lace.

As you stand there my heart runs a race

with pride. So proud of this man of mine.

I'm so blessed to call you my husband , and my friend.

But most importantly you are a soldier who defends.

You stand tall and protect one an all.

An honorable man you are to me.

I know sometimes it seems to tuff .

An that's when I come stand by your side ,and

whisper in your ear I love you John and do not fear.

We are together until the end,

The love of my life , My Husband, My Friend,

But most importantly a soldier to the End....

Date Written: March 25,2011

The Loneliness of an Army Wife...

The days are long an very tiring at most.

It's never time to be close. I'm an Army wife you see

that's why sometimes it only me.

I sit and wait for my soldier to come home or

wait for the phone to ring so you can hear

his voice once more.

The days are long and the nights are tuff.

The loneliness you feel inside all you want to do is cry.

It's hard at time to be strong and stand by his side.

But that's my job you see,

I'm an Army Wife an that will always be.

So I sit and wait for this war to end , Then you

will be all mine once again.



To my wonderful Soldier.
SSG. John D. Skinner



  

MY SWEET HUSBAND IS HOME FOR R&R

I picked up John last night at the airport. I have never been so happy to see him. When I saw his face I fell in love with him all over again. He looked really good to have been in  a war zone. I've been so worried down about all of it and when i  saw him my body just relaxed.

I've taken some photos of his homecoming decorations:

John and I. ( my mom did this photo for us.

John's Chocolate rose I took

Our window.

More decorations

Mail box

I'm so proud!!!

4 MORE HOURS!!!

Well I have 4 more hours before I go pickup John at the airport. I can't tell you how happy and alive I feel right now. I feel like a whole person again with him with me. He's my rock and things are no good without him. I'm so proud of him and for his service to his country. I'm very proud to have him in my life , God has truly blessed me in so many ways but the best blessing is John. I would go to the end of the earth for him and would glad give up my life so he could live. The world can be such a bad place and to find a love for one another like we do now days is like finding a rare jewel. If you do find it hang on to it. Everyone needs to remember to always tell your loved ones what they mean to you, I just recently learn that when we almost lost my dad. My eyes open wide to how precious life is. An John's life is very precious to me. He is the love of my life. We have no children and never will as for our family together we have each other and our babies (2 dogs and 2 cats). An I'm very happy with just that . Thank you God for everything you have given us and especially to me.

I love you John with all my heart and soul.

SISTERS AND BROTHERS!!!!!

I have 3 sisters and 1 brother. Our names are Angel, April, Amie, Amber and Andrew. ( Don't ask what my mom was thinking all A's).We grew up in a family that had a good bit of disagreements, but also had alot of love for each other. My sisters and I were very ruff and tuff. Dad didn't have a son so he taught us as if we were boys. We fought and worked like we were young men. We always pulled together as a family to get the job done. My sisters and I didn't always get along, and if we got into a fight , believe me when I say it would get bad. But we always stuck together. If someone would hurt one of us we were there to help them pick up the pieces.
Then Andrew came along. See Andrew was Adopted and He was the best thing that happen to our family he was such a cute little guy and was always smiling. When we got him has name started with an A so it was like he was meant to be with us. We have had him since 9 months old. He's 17 yrs old now I look at him now and it seems like time has just flew by.
I love all my siblings very much an even though we don't always agree we love one another. We are always there if we need each other. I will always be there for them. I love you guys! 

April

Amie

Amber

Andrew

Angel (me)

This Waiting is killing me ,GRRRR!!!!

Well John got thur on the phones yesterday in Afghanistan. He will be flying out on the 21th, It's taking forever. It amazes me how the Army waste no time in getting your spouse over in the middle of a war but they take their sweet time bringing them home. But that's the way it goes. I'm just ready to see my baby, we have been apart so long and i haven't had a good nite sleep since he left. I worry for him all the time. The life of an Army wife is not easy ,you have to be the strong one all the time. There is no room for the weak at heart. Being married to someone in the military you have to have a love for that person like no other.
The days can be long and lonely. They never have a day off because usually the phone will be ringing all day. No matter where they are ,home, vacation they still find you. It also can be a good life. I'm very proud of my husband and I support him 200% . He is a true hero and it's amazing to be married to him. We have a great relationship and having because stronger because of his deployment. I really don't want to give anyone bad ideas about the military it is a wonderful career and life is good alot of the times you just need to ask yourself if you are strong enough to handle the separations because there will be many of them...

SSG. Skinner ( my hubby)

Another 6 years



Swearing in another 6yrs. I'm proud of you!