Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Missing My Grandparents....

I woke up this morning a little after4am. I had a dream about my grandparents all four of them. We were having a family reunion and they were there. It was such a good dream. They have been gone for a long time. February is coming up it is a ruff time for me.  See my papaw Whitaker was killed in a robbery on Feb 23,1983 and My mamaw Whitaker's birthday is Feb. 22,  and My mamaw Ford died Feb, 22, It's funny because mamaw Ford was born on Oct. 1, and so was My papaw Whitaker ( Oct. 1). My papaw Ford died in August 1983. So I lost them both in the same year. My mamaw Whitaker passed away on Sept. 7.
Let me tell you a little about them. My papaw Ford and I weren't real close. He was a quiet man. He work hard for years helping to bring up 9 children. He was a hard man at times to deal with . I remember story's my Dad told me about him, Like how my mamaw hit him on the head one time with a steel skillet. He had been fussing all day long and her got feed up and grab the skillet off the stove ( and it was hot) hit him in the head and told him to shut up and go to his room. Later when dinner was ready he came to the table and was starting to pray when everyone noticed he had a big red spot on his head ( he was bald)  everyone started laughing so hard he got up and went back to his room.

My Mamaw Ford was very special to me. She was the type of lady that if you needed anything she would give it to you. She would feed the homeless that would come in on the train or if they came to her door. She always said you never know when you may be in the presents of an Angel. She had a garden every year and Many times I watched her shell peas and butter beans , make jelly and pickles. An could cook like no one else I new. I remember being in her living room and we would be dancing and she would come in doing the Charleston. She was so cute. I miss her so much especially around Christmas time she loved Christmas.


Papaw Ford

Mamaw Ford

 My Papaw Whitaker was the grandfather I was very close to When he died I think a piece of myself died with him. It's hard knowing that because some one decided to rob his store that it was their choice when his life would end. He was always there for me and took me every wear with him. I guess you could say I was his little side kick. I remember when I was little he had a CB in his truck and we would talk to truckers that were on the road. We went on trips together. He owned his own store when I was little and I would go in there and get what I wanted off the selves. He spoiled me real bad. I still miss him everyday. This Feb 23, he will be gone for 29 years and it still like yesterday at times....

My Mamaw Whitaker was a real lady, She never went any wear with out her nails done, Hair  and makeup on her face. she was so beautiful . I use to tell her all the time that she should have been a model. She was a very strong woman after papaw passed away. She worked as a dispatcher for UWA, in Livingston, AL. She worked hard and never asked anyone for help. She did everything on her own. I was very proud of her. When she found out she had lung cancer it was hard watching her go down. We all took turns staying with her and I stayed alot and alot of running back and forth. The whole time I got it in my hard that I was trying to save her and she fought for 6 months. When she passed I felt like a failure. It was very hard because we got very close. We all loved her so much.
Mamaw Whitaker

Papaw Whitaker




















We all miss them everyday. I remember thinking when Mamaw Ford passed away, that I was no ones Granddaugther any more. But I was wrong as long as I live they will live inside me.


Tuesday, January 17, 2012

I don't understand people sometimes...

I really don't get some people these days. You try your hardest to be nice to some one and they just stab you in the back. You know it's hard enough to get by in this crazy world with out having to deal with stuff like this. You try to be a good person and someone comes along and takes from you, whether it's personal belongs , ideas you have or suggests that you make. An on top of it they take credit for it. It just doesn't make sense to me. There is enough room in this world for everyone to do there on thing. Why try and take someone elses. It's all I can do to live here in the delta I don't know anyone here it's just me , my 2 dogs( Crocket and Festiss) and 2 cats ( Sadie and Lil puss). So it's hard to get out and meet people here because it is dangerous. John is in Afganistan for another 6 months. So let me have my blogs, Face book and email. Get your own ideas you don't need mine. God gave us brains lets try to use them please. I want to be a good person and good to everyone I know. I thank god everyday for all the people I do know and I love them all. I am done venting now. Everyone have a blessed night.

Another long day of waiting.......

Well I woke up this morning at 4:30am and could not go back to sleep. I'm waiting for John to call and give me an update on where he is. The waiting is killing me. I have missed him so much. He really is the love of my life. I can't believe he's coming home. I just wish it was for going. When he get home we are going to spend a few days together then it's off to Union and Meridian to see our families. My dad has been in the hospital and I've been sick for the last few weeks an haven't got to see him it will be so good to see with my own eyes that he will be okay.
This is John in Afganistan  holding a pretty little bird.

John sent this picture to me in December, the date on the photo is wrong. I don't know how he got that bird to do that I guess he's just got that way about him.

Monday, January 16, 2012

COMING HOME!!!!

Well John will be on a plane tomorrow Heading home it should put him getting here around the 20th or 21st. They are a day ahead of us so tomorrow will be the 18th for them. I can't believe it is finally here. 15 days home . Of course I'll be really happy when this is all over for good and he's home where he will be safe. I'm very proud of my husband an proud to be married to him. John has always been great at what he does and the only other man in my life is my dad. Both of them are alike in some ways , working hard, try to provide for theirs families and loving them every step of the way. John is like that he is always talking about our future together and what will do when he retires. I love when he talks about those things it makes me feel so secure and safe. I love him for that. We have been married for 14 yrs and it still feels like yesterday when we fell in love.

Well got to get up and start getting ready for his home coming. John be safe and I love you more everyday.

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Time is flying by...

Time is just flying by. in 3 more days my husband will be on a plane heading home to me. I'm so excited to see him. Their has been so much going on here at home that it will be so good to have him by my side again. I've missed him so much. When the person you love has been away for awhile you go around feeling like half of your soul is gone. Nothing makes since without the love of your life is not there with you. An then on top of it he is deployed to a dangerous place where you stay on pins and needles all the time waiting for a phone call or waiting for a knock on the door . I pray everyday for that not to happen. It's scary when you don't hear from them for days at a time. An when you do finally here from them you want to just broke down and say where have you been? But you can't do that because you don't want to put them under more stress. But he will be here in a few days and he will be safe at home for 15 days. An I can't wait. I love you very much John....

Friday, January 13, 2012

Some of My Tattoos...





These are just a few of my tattoos . I have 13 in all and I'm not done yet. I plain on getting another one when my husband comes home from Afganistan.

Getting ready for his home coming......

Well we have 5 more days and John will be on a plane heading home. I've been busy getting the house ready and groceries bought The cabinets are stocked with his favorite foods. I've also been working on welcome home signs and also getting ready to have our own Christmas together. It's a late one but that's okay because you can have Christmas when you want to. I have been so excited I can't sleep at nite. Sometimes it feels like the day we met. Like we are just seeing each other for the first time. I love this man so much. I couldn't imagine my life without him it's just us in this world and we were made for each other.